最近，被人家误会得乱七八糟。

我也没有当场澄清什么的。

我只能说，你们猜错了啦~

他，只是好朋友。像家人般的好朋友。
我很喜欢跟他在一起的时刻。但是，有说不上是爱上了他。
聊天的时候不会尴尬，不会害羞。
就凭这一点，我就可以很肯定的说，我和他，并非是你们所想的。
难免会想到一些问题。为什么男女之间不能只是好朋友的关系呢?其实，我觉得ok呃。不懂为什么大家看到某个谁跟某个谁走得进一点就以为人家在拍拖。=_="

其实，真正让我脸红心跳的是另有其人。
见面是会害羞。难以遮掩脸红。
聊天时会kek kek地。因为，会紧张，会心跳加速。
上课时也会偶尔想到他。
吃饭时会在想他是否也在吃饭。
睡觉前会想想我们是否有未来~
这个才是我喜欢的"他"。 [^-^]

他和他，同一个时间出现在两个不同的范围里。除了感恩和感谢，我还能说什么呢?

This is an old topic. But I just feel like talking about it once again.

We are all grown-ups. There is no point waiting for people to spoon feed us anymore. No direct answers will be given for the questions. It's time for us to discover the answers ourselves. If you haven't done so, start now!!!

Once, there was a lecturer who told me this.

Never try to tell me "I don't know how" when you didn't even put effort in figuring out how.

Well, so true. Telling people "I don't know how" when you haven't even tried to find out how is just like a beggar, asking for money, without doing anything that is worthy. So, better don't make yourself look like a beggar okay.

亲爱的星期四，

真的很抱歉。本来已经计划好好要怎样征服你的。怎知，我还是让你失望了。

LOL!说到昨天，哎哟。第一，我竟然忘了加钱去我钱包。搞得我差点连搭车的钱都不够。可怜到~走着路去静家。经过了一两间的面包店。肚子还会咕噜咕噜的响起。可我，连买一个甜甜圈的钱都不够。哇靠!没钱的感觉很烂!

到了静家，我就一直跟自己说，一定要做点什么的。不能荒废这么宝贵的假期。Ok啦。勉强的完成英文科的research。到了12那样，我们就去Pyramid的Machines问看有没有Adobe的正版货。怎知，OMG!!!!!Premium Suite竟然要RM8000!!变态到不行!我是比较属于后知后觉的人。所以，没有当场表现出惊讶的表情。过了一阵子，我才慢慢有种被吓倒不行的感觉。RM8000咧!!开玩笑!脚都要软掉了。算了啦。还是去找别的。不要跟Machines买了。然后，我们就一直在等Banny 和KaiLee来。等等等。。很久一下。原来，他们那里不止两个人。要等买整班人，。。oh no~白等了一个小时。算了。我跟静就跟Felix去Pyramid对面找点吃的。兜了一圈，我们就说去Domino吃。进了Domino,扭捏了一下，我们决定不吃它了!有够欠扁。最后，我们就去了"又一城"makan。Syiok!好吃!好吃!好喝!好喝!非常满意~Service好。食物好。价钱ok。昨天是静请。Thanks!!

然后，我们兜兜转转，浪费了蛮多时间。可是，算了啦。当作游车河咯。回到静家，开始piah我的home assignment。也有偷懒几下。还好还算完成些什么了。哈哈~然后，静突然想起吧生的Aeon好像有卖Adobe正版。而且比较便宜。So,想了几下，我们就出发去了!爽!因为不用搭火车!在车里面聊了不少废废的话题。==" 来到吧生，白跑Aeon。因为，那里没有卖Adobe正版了。算~我们就去买家私。蛮爽一下。因为，我很喜欢看家私。哈哈~我是很注重"家"的感觉的。

就这样，我好玩的荒废我的星期四。没有对不起自己啦。因为，玩的蛮开心的。 ><

Well, finally I have the mood to blog again.

我说我呀~~ 只要一有什么东西没掌握好，自己就在那边紧张。。怕到不敢开始动手。现在又来酱。。很不健康捏~

Zzz。。。

不要再逃避了啦。。

快点开始吧。。。

T_______T

*piak*

你现在到底清楚了吗
那麽多年仔细躲避悲伤
到了今天仍然还在装傻
快放下
快放下

游乐，苏打绿

Sicky me.

Guess I am not experiencing normal tiredness.

I kept feeling dizzy, as though my brain is lacked of oxygen these days. I even almost fell off the chair last Saturday.

I had been sleeping from 9pm to 7am two nights back.

After having 10 hours of sleep, I still look like ghost. My college mates thought that I never slept at all. == After I went home, I slept again from 2.30 to 6pm. I started to feel tired at 12am. I finally slept at 2am till 10am, which made it 8 hours of sleep. At 12pm, I already feel tired. Started feeling dizzy. I was told that I am lacked of blood. They called it 贫血 in chinese. T__T

I really wanna recover asap. I have many things that I want to do, but I have no strength to do so. Dizzy.. I wanna nap again..

我一直都忍着。告诉自己，"不准哭!" 忍着那心痛的感觉。忍着那失望的感觉。忍着那对你的愤怒。 渐渐的，我累了。不是不够睡的累，而是精神上的累。

那失败之作，我就不想提了。

那失望感，也就算了。

那心痛感+愤怒感，。。。。 我要怎么算??????
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唉~~

我不管了啦。你爱怎样就怎样啦。。

谢谢Eric的一句。因为你那一句话，我终于崩溃了,有勇气大哭一场了。要不然，我可能到现在都还没能够释放自己的痛苦。

谢谢亮一路来如家人般的安慰。

谢谢大家陪同我吃餐好的。让我心情开朗多了。

完毕~

Sometimes, I find myself putting too much of effort in helping people. No matter how tired I am, as long as that person is a friend that I appreciate, I will still put my best effort in helping him/her to solve the problem. Yeah. So after the helping is done, as usual, people will thank me. "Oh, thank you so much for the help!! You are so kind" And there goes the blah and blah and blah. But, when it was my turn asking for help, ..... things are different. Well, I am not saying that I help people for the sake of getting something in return. But, I thought friends are supposed to help each other you know. I only need your little time to help me. Compare to how long I took to help you in the past, what would that little time cost you? I seriously have no idea why. I really don't want to count you on that. But, thanks to the "good" weather, I just can't stop thinking in a pessimistic way. *sigh* Anyhow, gratefully there was still someone who was so kind to help me. The whole scenario created such a big contrast between you and that kind friend. I still have to say you truly disappoint me. Very much. I will still treat you like a friend of mine. But somehow, the feeling is really different. I have lost faith in you.

What else that made my day sucks..

My lovely bottle went "pok kai"(扑街) today. I was in the mini bus. Well, the mini bus never shut its door. The bus was moving unevenly that my bottle ran out of my hand, rolled to the entrance, and POK-KAI-ED. Okay. The moment I saw my beloved bottle, crashing on the tarred road, I just stunned there and acted as though I wasn't feeling hard at all. I went on chit chatting with my schoolmate in the bus. After I reached college, I just couldn't stop flashing back the whole incident; how it actually pok to the road. Omg~~ What an ironic dying way my bottle had.. T__T

And and and... not to forget about this stupid weather. I really love rainy days. But, not today! It was like centuries back that I last wore in a more feminine way to college. Finally, today I made an attempt to wear so. Just feeling right to wear like this today. BUT........HOW COULD IT RAIN??? Damn damn damn.... If it was just a drizzle, I am fine with that. But it rained like SHIT! I had enough to worry about. And I still had to worry of my shoes getting wet and so on so forth just because of this damn rain.

Besides all the shits that I had been facing today, yesterday was not any better than today. == I wasted one holy day on one figure as I am not in the mood at all. When it was the midnight, someone pissed me off like no one else could. Yeah, THANKS TO YOU, I feel so pissed! You also realized that you pissed me off right? Thank god you ain't that blur yet. I thought you were having so much of hahaha and lol until you never realized that the person you are talking to is not giving you any good response. Yayaya.. She loves you so much. So just go ahead with her. Don't come to me and bla bla bla anymore. You ain't making my day any better!!! It's none of my concern how you feel about her and how you wanna settle all these things. I don't wanna know all that. Unless you have made up your mind on what you wanna do, or else, don't mess up with my life anymore.

I guess I am done with vomiting my unhappy things! Chaos~